A lot of times when I ask to photograph someone, there is this assumed notion of an intended concept. People often ask me, “What do you have in mind?” Or sometimes, they’ll be quick to suggest a concept, such as boudoir or pin-up. The truth of the matter is, I have nothing in mind other than photographing someone. I have no concept. My concept is the lack of a concept, an “anti-concept.”
I cannot discern if this “anti-concept” stems from a lack of creativity, or a desire to be honest. Photographer Esther Reyes recently commented on my “exploration of barriers and motivations.” Her comment has really stuck with me. I keep thinking about it. I do seem to get hung up about the “why” of things, and I am fascinated by barriers. Perhaps because I have so many barriers myself.
I live a life rife with barriers, nearly all self-constructed and self-imposed. I find many of them to be sources frustrating limitations, yet I have convinced myself long ago they are necessary. I feel like they allow me to exercise an elevated level of control over the people I let into my life, all of which I admit I hold at an arm’s length.
One of the most frustrating barriers I have created is my fear of photographing friends and family, so I seek out strangers to photograph. That’s how I find my self sitting in girls’ bedrooms.
Images are a mix of Portra, Superia, and Ektar. All shot with the Nikon F100 and developed and scanned by the Canadian Film Lab.