I’ve been in a bit of a downward tailspin for some time now. I thought a short break leading into the new year would revitalize me, but instead it just brought everything to a grinding halt. Two months into the new year, and I am still trying to overcome the inertia.
One of the biggest obstacles has been paralysis by analysis: self-analysis. My paranoia of being utterly incapable of viewing my photography objectively has me outsourcing every aspect of my photography, including the subject matter. And in that regard, I am far too stressed out about what others think. Then reading Susan Sontag’s “On Photography”didn’t help.
Sontag has, of course, a great affection for art including photography. She wouldn’t have written so much on the subject if she didn’t appreciate it. The book itself is a great read, and anyone who picks up a camera or enjoys looking at photos really ought to read it – twice. Regardless, many passages in her book only caused me to feel more self-conscious about what I photograph, and more importantly, why. And as I agonize over my sub-conscious, like a dark Freudian critic, my procrastination endures.
The original tagline for this blog was “snapshots and footnotes.” One of my most favorite photographers is William Eggleston. So with all the stress of what to shoot, how to shoot it, why I shoot it, and who to show it to, and whose praise to listen to, or whose criticisms to listen to, I’ve decided to say, “Fuck it.” I reduced my bag to the essentials: Fuji X100T, Nikon F100, 50mm 1.8G, and the 35mm 2.0D. My goal? To just go about my life and to take snapshots of things I find interesting, to my find my inner-Eggleston. I don’t care if anyone likes them, or if they’re good, or if they will ever be a part of a project. They are simply things that interest me, and they are snapshots I’d like to revisit instead of just posting them and never looking at them again.
With that said, I am working on another side project showcasing stuff around Prince Edward County that I think is cool and worth telling people about. So check it out at PECo360.com!